Saturday, February 28, 2009

I did a Terrible Thing...

OK, that might be a slight exaggeration, but what I did made me feel like a pretty awful mom!

Aiden and I went to the mall with my mom and sister today. While we were waiting for my mom to get her hair cut, Aiden noticed all the colorful gumball machines in the middle of the mall. I have never let him have one before, but my sister was getting one, so I thought that I would let him try one. I haven't had a gumball in forever and I decided that I was going to get one as well. Aiden did fine with his gum until he dropped it on the floor and I had to throw it away. Of course, he wasn't too happy about it, but he got over it pretty quickly.

We had gone out to lunch and Aiden had brought his to-go cup in the car. Once he finished it, I tossed my gum in the cup. We went to a few other places and later in the day, I bought a water. When we were in the car, Aiden asked if he could have a drink. At first I handed him the bottle, but my sister told me that he was getting spit all in it. Then I saw his cup, poured some water in it, and handed it to him.

When we got home, I brought the cup inside and went to pour out what was left of Aiden's water before throwing the cup away. As I was pouring out the water, my gum fell into the sink! I felt awful for giving him a drink with my old chewed gum in it!

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Just for a Smile

Aiden has been saying such funny things lately and I feel the need to preserve the memories, so I will share them with you!

Yesterday, we were driving home from my grandmother's house and Aiden was playing with a baby rattle that he had found in a box at her house. I asked him if he wanted to share that toy with the baby since he has so many big boy toys now. He said, "No. He needs to get his own toys." Uh oh! Looks like we may need to work on sharing!

It was getting dark and Aiden asked me, "Why does the moon come out and where is the sun?" I started by telling him that we live on Earth. He said, "But we're getting ready to move to Washington DC." It made me laugh but I continued my explanation even though I knew it was a little advanced for him.

Aiden and I went to my parents' house this evening. While he was playing, Aiden found my mom's dish gloves and immediately put them on. He ran into the living room and started squealing, "I'm Mickey Mouse!" I didn't get it at first, but my mom was cracking up. She said, "You know how Mickey Mouse wears those white gloves..." Oh! We watched Mickey Mouse Clubhouse on Monday. I can't believe how many details he picks up and remembers!

It really made me laugh when I searched for a Mickey Mouse picture and saw that Aiden was even doing his arms the same way!

He was so proud and excited about coming up with this idea. I just had to get it on video!

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

A Kreativ Bloggy Award

I received this cute award from Rachel Ann at Rachel Ann's Place! And once again, it's taken me longer than it should to post it. I love bloggy awards. So, I don't know why I always procrastinate when it comes to passing them on!

And like most other awards, this one comes with a set of rules...

List 7 things that you love and then pass the award on to 7 people...tagging them and letting them know they won! You can copy the picture of the award and put it on your sideboard letting the whole wide world you are KReATIV!

I'm going to keep my Love list light and fluffy and totally random!

1. I LOVE my family. I have an absolutely amazing family. I love how I can count on them for anything.

2. I LOVE spending time with Aiden. I can't wait until September. Once we move to Washington DC, I get to be a stay at home mommy and spend all my time with Aiden and the baby!

3. I Love to run. I really like running in local races and winning medals! Unfortunately, my doctor advised me not to run during my pregnancy since I had preeclampsia with Aiden. :(

4. I Love step aerobics. I'm still allowed to do that! I have some DVDs that I do at home. I try to do it five times a week, if I'm not feeling too sick.

5. I Love getting cupcakes from one of our local bakeries. They have the Best buttercream icing! (I'm going to post a picture of those cupcakes soon)

6. I Love going to OB appointments. That's the only time I look forward to going to the doctor!

7. I Love the beach. I love everything about it. The sand, the tide pools, the ocean, the sharks... (finding shark teeth!) And Aiden has so much fun. I love just watching him run around!

And now I pass this award on to:

1. Heatherlyn
2. Staci
3. April
4. ~~Mel~~
5. Amanda
6. Kati
7. Jennifer

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Just Say Cheese

I posted a picture of Aiden's new haircut yesterday. So, today I thought I would share my picture taking experience. Normally, Aiden begs me to take his picture, but he was not having it last night!

Finally, a good one!
I literally took 25 pictures and only 2 of them were decent!

That's my boy. Never a dull moment around here!

Monday, February 23, 2009

A Hair Cut for Aiden

My grandmother has been bothering me about Aiden's hair for quite some time. So I finally agreed that his hair was a bit too long and too much in his face. Matt wanted me to get it cut short, but I can't bear to part with all of his hair until he asks. When I told Aiden we needed to get a hair cut, he held on to his hair and said, "Just a little right, Mommy?" Well... if you insist!

OK, I'm slightly embarrassed that I let his hair get this shaggy!


(Please ignore the messy face and shirt! He had just finished eating chicken nuggets with caramel. Mmm... Sounds good, right?)

It took me some time to get used to this new cut. I wasn't sure that I liked it for a day or two. The hair stylist layered it all over. When my grandmother first saw Aiden's hair, she said, "Look how short it is in places! I wouldn't have paid for that!" Everyone else loved his new cut! And now that my grandmother has gotten used to it, she likes it too. "At least it's out of his face."

Crazy Weather

I can't believe that a week a half ago, Aiden and I went to the park and didn't even need coats! It was 67 degrees! When we got up yesterday morning, I opened the door to let the dog out and it was blindingly bright. My mouth dropped when I saw that our yard was covered in snow. Of course it wasn't much, about an inch, but still it was 55 degrees on Saturday! Most of the snow has melted today, but it is still really cold (22 degrees)! I just can't wait for some warm weather!

Today's mostly melted snow:

A day at the park (A week and a half ago):

Aiden really likes playing with Kenai. He was more interested in walking her around on the leash than playing on the playground! We could do that in the back yard!

On the Jungle Gym in dire need of a hair cut!

Normally, I really enjoy the snow, but I'm done with it until next winter! Aiden and I are really looking forward to having more park days.

I'm Back... Again!

I want to thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers and all of the nice comments that were left. I have "met" some truly amazing women through blogging!

A quick update: My grandmother is originally from Germany and she met my grandfather when he was stationed there with the US army. They were married when she was 18 and she then moved to the United States. I can only imagine what she is going through right now. Aiden and I have been spending a lot of time with her trying to keep her spirits up and once we get home at night, I've been too exhausted to blog. My grandmother is lucky to have a great support system, a big family and lots of close friends. I know that she will be happy again.

I don't really know how you're "supposed to act" when you lose a loved one. I love my grandfather and I miss him terribly, but I think it's time for us to get back to our normal day to day routine. (Is it normal to feel guilty about that?)

Monday, February 16, 2009

Trying to Stay Strong: An update

My grandfather passed away at 6:30 this morning. We all knew that it was only a matter of time, but it's still a really difficult time for us.

My grandfather has not been conscious since before his surgery last Saturday (Feb 7) and he continued to show no signs of improvement. On Friday, we were notified by the doctor that we had three options:
  1. Opt for the double amputation in which he had a 1% chance of making it off the operating table
  2. Take him off the ventilator and just see what happens (he wold still be given medication so that he would not be in pain) or
  3. Or leave him on the ventilator and wait

None of the options offered the possibility of recovery and we already knew what my grandfather would want. The family decided to take him off the ventilator. This was to take place on Friday evening. While we were waiting to tell the doctor our decision, my grandmother started having severe chest pains. The nurses sent her to the ER and she was admitted to the hospital. My grandmother then had to have a heart cath and several ultrasounds. She wasn't released from the hospital until Sunday evening. During that time, my grandfather remained on the ventilator.

Last night, we went to the hospital and met with the doctor again. My grandfather was taken off the ventilator at 6:10 that evening and began to breathe on his own. However, since only 20% of his heart was functioning he didn't have a chance of living.

I have an absolutely amazing family and I am incredibly lucky to have them. We had 18 family members in the ICU waiting area and the chaplain commented that he had never seen a family with that much support. Someone was with my grandfather from the time the ventilator was removed until the time he passed away this morning. They were saying a prayer in his room with him when he took his last breath and they said that he looked really peaceful.

I've spent most of the day with my family and will spend this evening with them as well. I am really sad right now, but I know that my grandfather is no longer in pain and he was ready. He believed that he would be going to a better place. With all the love and support my family has been given, we will be strong and we will heal.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Happy Valentine's Day!

I want to thank everyone for their kind comments, thoughts, and prayers. It's amazing how many wonderful people you meet in the bloggy world. I'll post an update tomorrow. Today needs to be a day of happy thoughts.

I feel like I've been a really bad mom lately (See? Happy thougts!). I have just been emotionally drained this week and completely exhausted on top of that. Aiden has been watching too many movies by far. I think he's watched more TV this week than he normally watches in 3 months. I felt guilty about it but I just couldn't seem to pull myself out of the rut. But yesterday, I came up with an activity for him. We made Matt a Valentine's day card.
Making wings!

I made the heart by painting down the pinky side of both of Aiden's hands and curling them to together to form a heart.

Ready for assembly

"Can we make another one, Mommy?"

A card for Daddy

Aiden had a lot of fun making his "hoo-hoo owl" and it really lifted my spirits. I'm going to really focus on spending time with Aiden and doing activities that are fun for him. Not only is it good for him, it's good for me as well.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

It's been a difficult week

Well, it all started last Wednesday when my grandfather went to the hospital for surgery. He has diabetes and they were going to insert a balloon in his leg to try to improve circulation. During the surgery, some part of their equipment slipped and nicked an artery that affected his other leg. They couldn't repair anything at the time and scheduled a by-pass for both legs for Saturday and sent him home Thursday morning.

On Friday, my grandfather was unable to stand up and was rushed to the ER due to extreme pain. He had surgery on his legs Saturday morning and suffered from a heart attack later that day. The doctors are unsure if the surgery restored any of his circulation and informed my grandmother that he may have to have both of his legs amputated. However, they can't say that he will survive this surgery due to the damage his heart suffered. He is currently on a ventilator in the ICU while his heart stabilizes. He has been in a medically induced coma since Saturday and they started slowly weaning him from the sedatives yesterday in hopes that they can get him off the ventilator by early next week.

I have always been really close to both of my grandparents. My parents were divorced when I was 6 months old and my mom and I lived with them for the first 6 years of my life. And they have taken care of Aiden while I'm at school or work since he was 3 months old. It breaks my heart to see how devastated my grandmother is. It's just been a really difficult time for our family.

I feel like I'm already in mourning and nothing is certain yet. I'm going to try my best to put on a happy face and do something fun with Aiden today. He has no idea that anything is wrong but I'm sure he's confused by how our routines have drastically changed. Regardless of the outcome, today, I'm going to focus on some good memories...

When Aiden was younger, he always liked to load Papaw up with toys.

My grandparents on Halloween

Christmas Eve: enjoying some yummy food

Friday, February 6, 2009

Need. Sleep.

Normally, I don't like to sleep. I'm rarely in bed before midnight and I'm up before 6. But right now I would sleep all day if I could! I was exhausted like this when I was pregnant with Aiden too. The only difference then was that I could take naps and sleep through the night (except for the occasional trip to the bathroom). Aiden was sleeping through the night before he was a month old. I even had to set an alarm and wake him up to feed him. Now, it's a different story...

For the last two weeks, Aiden has been waking up screaming for me 2-3 times a night. It's absolutely exhausting! So he's been day-time potty-trained for about a month now, but I put him in a diaper at night. He's almost always dry when he wakes up (without having to get up in the middle of the night to potty), but last night, he woke me up at 1 and 3 and needed me to take him to the bathroom. Then he had a bad dream at 4:30 and then again at 5:15. The fourth time I had to get up with him, I laughed and told Matt that he must be preparing me for September. It's not even 9:30 and I'm having trouble keeping my eyes open! How am I going to do this without caffeine?! It's going to be a long day!

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Just for a Smile

We had another Snow Day today! I think we got two inches of snow, but all of the schools were closed. So I got to spend the day at home with Aiden. We didn't get to play in the snow this time though. It was way too cold. When I got up this morning it was -2 with the windchill, but it's supposed to get up to 60 degrees on Saturday. Crazy!

Anyways. When Aiden and I get up at the same time, I don't get a second alone to get ready. I tried to put a movie on for him this morning, but once he figured out that I was going to take a shower, he started pulling off his clothes and came running in the bathroom. I called to Matt, "Do you think I'll ever be able to shower alone any time soon?" *Hint Hint* Come play with him while I take a shower! Aiden looked put his hand on my arm and said, "Don't you worry, Mommy. Aiden is here with you. You don't have to be alone." LOL He is such a sweetie!

He's really enjoying his chapstick right now! I should have thought about giving him that this morning!

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

There's a Hoo-Hoo in the House

Aiden loves owls. I thought this was going to be a short phase, but he seems to be talking about them more and more lately. He's even made up a couple of "hoo-hoo" games! So this is how we've been spending our time lately.

Aiden's favorite game is playing Mommy or Daddy hoo-hoo. As soon as I pick him up from my grandmother's house, he will say, "You be a hoo-hoo tonight?" He absolutely loves this game and would play it all night if he could.

The game is kinda like hide-and-seek. Matt and I will take turns holding Aiden and the other one will be the hoo-hoo. The one holding Aiden hides and the hoo-hoo flies around looking for them. We can never really hide with Aiden because he yells and giggles the entire time. When the hoo-hoo flies into the room, Aiden will scream, "Hi!" Then he will throw out his arms for a hug and say, "I like you!" Whenever we play a game like this or hide and seek he gets a little bit scared or anxious. But he loves it and asks to play again and again. Go figure...

Another hoo-hoo game consists of him hiding from the owls under a tent (his blanket). He will giggle and ask if the hoo-hoo is going to peck him. Then he will peek out and I will fly over to him and peck (tickle him). Then he will be the owl and I have to hide from him.

As much as he likes owls, he is afraid of these:

He calls them daddy hoo-hoos.

He has been really scared to go into his room for the past couple of weeks because he thinks a daddy hoo-hoo might be in there. I've tried everything I can think of to reassure him that hoo-hoos are nice and that there is no way that they can get into the house. He will still sleep in his room at night, but he will not go in there during the day~ not even to get his blanket or bring me a book. He will grab my hand and say, "Come with me, Mommy." I know he will get over it soon, but I wish there was something I could do to make him not be afraid now.....

Monday, February 2, 2009

Favorite Things Bloggy Swap

I am so excited! I just found out about an awesome bloggy swap hosted by Mamarazzi. This will be my first time participating in a swap, but I know it's going to be a lot of fun!

If you're interested in participating click this button to read the rules and find out what the swap is all about.

I can't wait to share all of my favorite things with someone! I've already started making my list!